welp i didn’t get foundation staff, but i knew i wasn’t suppose to do it. pine cove is where i’m suppose to be and i am totally down for that! i knew i wasn’t suppose to apply, yet i went around God to fulfill my own wants.

thinking about limiting God. we limit Him ALL THE TIME. it’s ridiculous! if we didn’t limit Him, He could do some fantastic things in our lives, yet we want to do everything our way instead of His. 

Proverbs 16:9 “In his heard a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.”

That is a perfect verse for what i have experienced this last semester.

yet i’m still thinking why? why didn’t i get RSC, why didn’t i make foundation staff? was i not bubbly enough? was it my schedule? you did they just not have enough room? or they simply didn’t want me for the job?

and one of the things i have a problem with is when people come up to my and say “i was talking to so and so and they said that you would have been a perfect fit for foundation staff!”

those are some encouraging words yet in the back of my mind i say “well if they think that why didn’t i get it?” 

don’t get me wrong i’m so okay with not being on staff this year, i would have had to take that last week off of pine cove which i feel like God has some cray cray stuff planned for that week, and i’m so stoked :)

i just need to get my thoughts out and written down.